July-August 2004
I have never traveled to Southeast Asia. I have
never noticed this before, really, but there it is. I have studied Southeast
Asia, I have read about it, I have Southeast Asian friends, I have even flown
through, but I have never visited this region before. And now, an opportunity
presents itself to do some work that will take me there. I can hardly do the
work for the excitement of looking up travel-sites and so on, and that
excitement is part of the adrenalin rush that completes the assignment.
Hotels, tickets, visas, work, wire-transfers and
now it is August 15 and for the first time, I am not thinking about India that
day but another place. Thailand. Bangkok.
Snatches of that 1980s hit keep going through my
head and each time I am struck by how meaningless the lyrics are. “Bangkok,
Oriental City.” I reckon Lisbon was as exotic to me as Bangkok. I was just as
excited. It was just as familiar through my studies and as unfamiliar to me in
reality. “One night in Bangkok makes a tough guy crumble, something about grim
despair and ecstasy.” Faux profundity is more annoying than banality in my
book.
Anyway, I am checking in at the Thai Airways
counter and even the really tiring timing of this short flight—the dead of
night take-off and crack of dawn landing—cannot dim my enthusiasm.
August 16, 2004
The colours of a Bangkok dawn coordinate,
impossible to imagine, with the purple orchids people are always putting on
your plate, on your bed, on your towel, everywhere. I have no complaint about
either. I love purple.
As we drive in from Don Huang International,
Bangkok is barely awake. Lights are still turned out in the blocks of flats we
pass. The roads are emptier than I will see them after this. At certain moments
on our trip, we might be on an interstate in the Midwest, driving towards
Chicago or Detroit. On either side, there are tenement-like buildings, or posh
glass-front corporate buildings, or warehouse-like structures. Then we pass a
gold-trimmed temple and we are in Asia.
This is something I will repeatedly observe in
the next few days—Benetton and Esprit, Armani and Versace, Boots and Dunkin
Donuts, CD Warehouse and Pizza Hut notwithstanding, the boys and girls in
vehemently western attire and blond hair notwithstanding—Bangkok is an Asian
city. This is not because of its Wats, its Buddhas, the smell of Thai cooking
everywhere. It just has an Asian spirit.
On that first morning, I am too groggy to think
very much. I just sink into the seat of the Mercedes that the hotel has sent
and watch Bangkok go by. The closer we come to the hotel, the more signs of
life become evident. We slow down to a pause at a stop-light and from the van
in front of us, four energetic Thais jump out and march to work (or back from
work) in different directions. I remember that the girl I talked with on the
plane said this was the business district.
We drive in and the lobby of the Royal Orchid
Sheraton is full of people. Most of them are slumped around the sofas, either
waiting for their rooms or their rides to the airport. I head out confidently
to the reception desk but have to change rooms twice before I can set my bags
down.
The manager asks if I want the curtains drawn apart
on the river-view. I say, “Absolutely.” Beyond, the sun has risen; the Chao
Phraya is waking up to the first boat traffic of the day and in the distance
Wat Arun witnesses yet another Bangkok dawn.
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The curtains stay parted for the next three days.
August 16, 2004
Finding good food and making new friends at the
same time are an uncommon experience. The first is harder for vegetarians
almost anywhere in the world outside India and gets harder for anyone as they
move further away from their kindergarten years. My first morning in Bangkok
holds out the promise of both, and for an ageing vegetarian, that itself makes
the trip worthwhile.
I am in Bangkok to make a presentation and my
partner in this assignment has travelled from another continent. We have worked
easily together so far, and our emails have moved from cordial to friendly, but
we have not met as yet. So going down that first morning—a little weary from
the strange flight timings and very hungry—I am not sure what I will find. Still,
one knows any interaction in these circumstances can always assume a default
minimum professional level.
A very pleasant surprise then to meet my
colleague who is warm, enthusiastic, shares my values and perhaps most
important at a breakfast meeting—as hungry and interested in the food as I am.
This sets the tone for our work together in the next two days—a harmonious
working rhythm which makes room for food, among other important things. Neither
of us considers starvation, stress or ponderousness a prerequisite for
efficiency, and this is a relief to me.
There is nothing more annoying to me than people
who never get hungry. In my life, I have met met many of them. Most of them are
also smaller and thinner, so that their appalling lack of appetite acquires the
glow of virtue and judgment along the way. Most annoying.
Hunger at mealtimes is a sign that your body is
working well. It is processing food as it is meant to and you are probably
eating right as well. In addition, one does not have to be a gourmand to have a
healthy appetite—not just for food but also for life. To enjoy and savour the
tastes and textures of food, to delight in its appearance and be able to relax
into the ambience of a good meal—whether cooked at home or eaten out is one of
the pleasures of living in society. Those of us who have at different times
been condemned to the deadline-driven, fast-track (to indigestion) lifestyle
where this is denied us know there is no real pleasure in the alternative.
At one time, when people were still introducing
me to eligible men, I realised that for me, losing my appetite around a person
was a sure sign that he was no suitable life-partner. And believe me, I have
starved myself through meetings with men because while my mind was working
overtime to wrap itself around the idea that a person was a suitable match, my
gut was saying, “Sorry, can’t stomach this one.” My gut was always right. Since
then, I have thought, this applies to friends as well. People with whom I can
eat without self-consciousness, apology or guilt are the people I now want in
my life; especially, in my working life.
Thus my two days of very good work done with my
new colleague-friend are also two days of good eating—good food and good
mealtime conversation. And of all the things we ate together, for me, the great
discoveries were deep-fried corn cakes and lime juice with mint leaves.
I am not very good at recipe creation so I will just describe the two to you in my own words. For the first, the Thai un-cob the corn and then rolling it into cornflour—batter, I think—pat it into cakes and deep-fry them. This sinful appetizer is then served with something that looks like the sambol Sri Lankans make—it is fresh cucumber in a sweet sauce with some other herbs, so that we can pretend there is something healthful about it. The second is something my colleague, who is Palestinian, introduced me to. It is regular lime juice with a handful of fresh mint leaves dunked in it. As you sip it, it feels very, very cool, and I am not exactly the type of person who throws summer garden parties, but I can imagine that this is a really neat thing to serve at them. I can see a nice tall jug of cold lime juice with lots of mint leaves floating around the bottom. Try it!
August 16, 2004
My first excursion into Bangkok is to Chinatown.
My colleague has a list of video games she needs to buy her brother and a
Chinatown address for finding them. She has been to Bangkok before, and has
been in town two days. So we set out in a tuk-tuk to find Chinatown, the market
with the electronic goods and the video games.
Still a little disoriented, I simply follow her
lead, get into the tuk-tuk which is like a South Asian auto-rickshaw (scooter,
auto, phat-phati or trishaw, depening on where you are) except that the
passenger seat more closely resembles a wheelbarrow with a bench than a
rickshaw carriage. I must say that while we in the subcontinent have found cute
appellations for this mode of transport (scootie, rick, for instance),
‘tuk-tuk’ has to be about the sweetest name it has anywhere.
Tuk-tuk
drivers, I have discovered during my week in Bangkok, are speed demons. On a
ride back from the National Museum during rush hour later in the week, the
driver of my tuk-tuk turned back several times to stress this point to me, in
the universal creole of broken English and expressive gestures: “Taxi no good
(followed by acting out sitting for hours in traffic). Tuk-tuk (followed by his
hands snaking forward swiftly through the roads packed with four-wheelers).
Taxi two hours. Tuk-tuk half-hour. Maybe one hour.” I have to agree. We do not
share enough of a vocabulary, but I would have added to his statement that in a
tuk-tuk you feel less claustrophobic in the middle of the road.
Back to the Chinatown trip, though: When I am in
other parts of Asia, I often forget to look around me at this new place I am
in. There is something very familiar about the buildings, the people, and the
juxtaposition of old and new. In Bangkok, this passivity is challenged when one
crosses a canal (or a moat). One remembers then that this was the “Venice of
the East.”
Apart from that, solid concrete structures of
the kind found also in Bombay’s Fort Area abound, and are punctuated by puny
buildings with balconies that have lattice patterns in concrete on the bottom
and cast-iron grills on the top. These are residences, I think, with clothes
hanging out to dry. At the street level, there are more stores than you would
think necessary anywhere in the world! But this is Asia in the twenty-first
century, where the selling and shopping never seem to end, notwithstanding the
poverty.
We seem to travel a long time and the entrance
into Chinatown in Bangkok is a subtler one than in the American towns where I
have been to Chinatown. The Chinese and Thai both consider red and gold lucky
colours so the difference is in the lettering on the storefront. The Chinatown
stores place their names up in Chinese, Thai and English.
Traffic is heavy, and we slowly round a block to
be dropped at a point that the tuk-tuk driver gesticulates is our destination.
My colleague leads us confidently to our destination.
This is a covered bazaar built around very
narrow alleyways. Stalls sit close together, some at the entrance scarcely more
than tables. We enquire at a few places and are led to a store on the side.
While my friend and the storekeepers work their way through her very long list,
I wander around the labyrinthine bazaar. Video games. Playstations. Video
games. Cell-phones. Playstations. Video games. Telephones. Toasters. Video
games. Cell-phones. Playstations.
Selling and buying are not handicapped by
linguistic differences. My friend reads from her list, which is then translated
into the local accent and one by one, each item is produced. It takes a team of
translators, searchers and finders in each store.
In the few unused spaces, food-vendors perch.
They exemplify the spirit of enterprise. They are not selling packaged food,
but sitting there with a little stove or a tray, with an assortment of
ingredients ready to put together. People make their way around the market
holding elaborate meals assembled and sold right there. Several times in the
hour or so we are there, a woman wheels her barrow around the narrow alleyways.
She is selling something that is either iced green tea or lichee juice in clear
plastic bags, tied at the top, and served with a straw that is inserted through
that sealed opening.
Every store has a little shrine, usually placed
on a shelf near the ceiling. Most of them are dedicated to Taoist or Confucian
saints; I did ask one woman for the name of the person represented within her
altar, but must confess that I did not comprehend and the exchange was hard
enough given each of our linguistic limitations that I faint-heartedly
abandoned the quest. Buddhist monks make their way around the bazaar. They are
seeking alms. Clearly, commerce knows no religious differences. This is a
common experience in all Asian marketplaces; all faiths encourage the giving of
alms, and this is done without regard to the faith of the recipient. It also
serves the purpose of extra-insurance!
I am the one traveling from a sub-tropical city,
but the crowded alleyways are too hot for me. I feel a shortage of air, and
when we finally emerge with our shopping done, I am relieved to step outdoors
onto the crowded streets of Chinatown.
August 17, 2004
In the sitting area before the business center,
I sit working on our presentation, waiting for my colleague. Slowly, the words
blur and my eyes give up on the endeavour to stay open. The night of travel is
beginning to take its toll. Calling it quits, I retire at a child’s bedtime,
just around seven o’ clock in the evening.
The feeling of a tired body, pushed to its
breaking point by prolonging bedtime rituals, being laid down on a bed is
indescribable (but I will try anyway)! Every limb, every muscle explores the
receiving mattress with the joy of a long-awaited reunion. The body seems to
ask of the mattress, “Is it really there? Will it receive me securely? Will it
support me through this night, and sustain this brief moment of respite for as
long as possible?” Satisfied (or satisficing, but let us stick with the fantasy
here), the head finally surrenders to the pillow. Then a brief struggle follows
as both body and head adjust to the needs of their weary muscles and find
positions that they can remain in awhile. Eyelids shut and the spirit
surrenders day to night, activity to dream, consciousness to the subconscious.
The day is erased and along with it, all worries, all agendas, all complexes
and all lists.
If you are lucky, sleep truly does claim you at
this point. More often than not, for me, it does not. Teasing me, it leaves me
lying there, exhausted, desperate for rest and abandoned to a thought-filled
wake. Too tired to work, too tired to sleep. And in the morning, too tired to
face the day.
So believe me when I tell you that of all pleasures,
the sweetest is rest. In Bangkok, facing the Chao Phraya and the illuminated
prang of Wat Arun and then overlooking a rain-drenched Sukhumvit soi,
I slept well.
August 17, 2004
Shuffle, shuffle, shuffle—papers, disks, ideas
and assignments
Shuffle down corridors with heavy files and
laptops
Shuffle down discursive alleys that go nowhere
in a straight line
looping back to new points of departure.
Shuffle, shuffle, this and that, in search of a
table with two chairs,
Enough surface space and a power outlet.
Shuffle through your list of needs and toss out
the Internet!
Shuffle the deck of cards you hold and pull out
the cards
that pack the most punch. Throw them out.
We do not believe in violence or its
pornography.
Shuffle the words you know to soften the blow.
Shuffle your list of things to do, and
prioritize the ones
you can do best in the time available.
Review the slides, so the best ones don’t get
lost in the scuffle.
Shuffle around the projector with the lapel mike
and shuffle the mike between the two of us so
that
We lose the podium in turn but keep the
audience.
Shuffle the audience around in your head—
red dress Manila, blue saree Delhi, green skirt
Kabul,
grey shirt Tel Aviv, brown hijab Sanaa, black
suit DC.
Shuffle the audience around in your head—
This one I want to talk to, this one I don’t
care,
This one I have seen before, this one I never
want to see again.
Shuffle the audience once more in your head—
she said; he said; he said she said; she said he
said.
So many wasted words, so many people dead.
Shuffle our feet as we share the mike to reply,
So many words we waste, so many people die.
Enough words then and silence, o mortal, shuffle
off and toil!
August 18, 2004
We Indians are everywhere. Why should Bangkok be
an exception?
We are Thai. We look Indian and could be from
any part of the Indian diaspora, but we are Thai. Our names are no longer
Indian but have been transformed as Thai names have, making a similar journey
from the Prakrit to Thai. We own parts of this town and it owns us.
We are Indians posted in Bangkok by the
government of India, private companies or international organizations. We are
harder to see everywhere but every now and then, at skytrain stations or the
better malls, we reveal ourselves by our manner of dress. The fabric is more
likely to be handwoven silk or cotton. The cut of our dress is more likely to
have come out of a boutique—no rough and tough ethno-chic here though.
We are also Indian tourists of all classes and
hues. We are convention visitors. We are families on vacation in the new
post-liberalization dispensation. We are stopping by on our way to or back from
the US. You see us, a little hungry, a little lost. Many of us are trailing
heavy shopping bags.
We are just everywhere. How we get there, what
we do remains a mystery.
We know that Indians traveled through the centuries
and this accounts for the Indian civilizational influence in Southeast Asia.
We know that Indians were transported across the world as indentured labour
in the colonial period. Other Indians took advantage of the reach of the British
Empire to engage in their trades in other British colonies. We know that anticolonial
exiles found homes outside the reach of the empire. We know about the Indian
diaspora and its cultural and political identity formation in contemporary
times.
But the more I travel, the more I discover that
there are communities we don’t know at all. Two and a half years ago, I
realised there was a large Indian community in Lisbon that had moved from Daman
to Mozambique and then to Lisbon.
What brought Indians to Thailand? Judging by
their names, by the Indian-Thai marriages you see everywhere, by the way in
which Thai-Indians or Indian-Thais (whatever name they give their hyphenated identity)
melt into Bangkok streets and plazas, they have been here at least one
generation. The fact that there are Indian temples even in older parts of town
means that there presence probably is even older.
What brought them here? Given that many of them
seem to be in the retail business, opportunity is a good guess. But would
someone not like to live in Bangkok for six months to a year to profile this
interesting community and its history and to write a real history that would
tell their story?
August 18, 2004
The cultural connection between India and
Thailand, of course, predates the emigration of this community. I once bought a
book, that I must still own, that was called ‘Greater India’—a term of some
political disrepute. It had photographs and text describing the reaches of the
subcontinent’s civilization. Thailand was one of the countries included, and
when you are in Thailand, from Buddhism to the Ramakien, this cultural
connection is evident. Thai tourist literature alludes to it in the discussion
of Buddhism’s importance, the Ramakien, the architecture of particular spaces
and the origins of Thai cuisine.
To me, one of the most striking products of this
cultural confluence is the integration of gods and other characters from the
Puranic literature into the universe of the Buddhist temple. You also see this
in Sri Lanka, where it is constantly proffered as an example of religious
harmony and integration. To the Thais, who live at a greater distance from the
overwhelming and overbearing universe of a Hindutva-ized Hindu India, there is
no religious difference to remark upon. These are simply characters from the
Ramakien who surround the Buddha.
Ramakien paintings are found surrounding the
Buddha in some of Thailand’s holiest shrines. For instance, the cloisters
around the Wat Phra Kaeo where the Emerald Buddha image is housed are decorated
with 178 panels depicting the Thai version of the Ramayana. The Buddhaisawan
chapel in the National Museum is home to the important Phra Buddha Sing image
has old screens depicting the Ramayana right behind the Buddha image. Ramakien
images also decorate the main shrine of the Wat Pho complex.
In addition, figures familiar to those who who
visit Indian temples such as kinnaras, yakshas and lions decorate the compound
walls and guard most of the temples in Bangkok.
At Kandy’s Temple of the Tooth, there are four
devales or temples to Hindu gods around the perimeter of the main temple that
are said to guard it. In their own right, they have followers and dispense
particular favours. In the context of South Asia’s politics of religion, they
are placed in a particular hierarchical relationship, serving the Buddha. In
fact, Vishnu is said to have been charged by the Buddha with the protection of
Sri Lanka.
Walking through Bangkok, I am moved to offer an
interpretation that is a little different. Given the beliefs common to Buddhism
and Vedanta, could we not say that in the devas serving the enlightened one
lies an illustration of an important idea? The idea that each of us has the
potential for self-realization and that the anthropomorphic and other forms of
divinity that we imagine and represent in images serve us towards that end.
Further, consistent with the Rig Veda’s Hymn of Creation, we create those forms
because of our need. Therefore, insofar as each one of us is a potential
bodhisattva, those forms guard and serve us. Stories like the Ramayana/Ramakien
are guideposts for us along the way to self-realization that can happen over many
lifetimes or in the many lives that one embodied self can see.
These musings take me in another direction. What
is the contemporary relationship between India and Thailand? Recently, they
have signed a free trade agreement, and it appears that there is some
understanding on cooperation in the area of Buddhist pilgrimage tourism.
Flights operate from Bangkok to Bodh Gaya and one runs into people going there
via Bangkok or coming to Bangkok after visiting Bodh Gaya or Sri Lanka.
What can we learn from each other in this age? I
was impressed by the ban on exporting Buddha images because they are sacred.
Not bad, I thought, after all, why should something that they hold as sacred
become a paperweight or a bedside decoration in another person’s home. Would I
place someone’s mother’s photograph in my bathroom as a decoration? But in
Bangkok, tourists swarm the temples and for those who actually come to pray, it
can hardly be edifying to hear people compare notes on their flight from
Kathmandu or last night’s dinner or the shopping in the night market at Pat
Pong. Perhaps they could restrict access—not as rudely as priests in Hindu
temples do—but in some other way.
More saliently, how do we manage to forces of change
that sweep through our cultures in this age of globalization?
August 19, 2004
A few years ago, when the Bamiyan Buddhas were
destroyed by Afghanistan, the act seemed to illustrate one of the essential
tenets of Buddhism: that everything is transient. Acceptance of the destruction
of the Buddhas was a different matter. It was a World Heritage site and as such
of value to everyone. But one viewpoint articulated by some Buddhists was that
this is of no more value than anything else. This was an opportunity to develop
compassion towards and learn from the Taliban. Certainly in an Afghanistan
where civil war and drought were taking their toll, stone sculptures could not
be the most urgent issue. But the Bamiyan statues are only a tangible (and
dramatic) example of change overtaking cultural practices and symbols. That
happens everyday in every sphere in every society.
In Bangkok, like the parts of South Asia I know,
old and new, traditional and modern co-exist quite comfortably. This is
exemplified best by the way in which hotel staff dress. Those on display—front
office, restaurant staff and entertainers—are in Thai costume. Those in the
managerial cadres are in business suits. The Thai costumes are ornate for the
most part and the business suits could have stepped out of any European
catalog. There appears to be no casual meeting-ground of styles—no Thai in a
shopping mall is in traditional dress.
It was when I was studying Sri Lanka initially
that I began to comprehend the great difference in the extent to which
Europeans had influenced Sri Lanka and India. In India, the diffusion of
western dress, ideas, practices and ‘culture’ is still much less. As a much
larger country, much of our lives, customs and practices remained inaccessible
to outsiders. Gradual synthesis rather than an erosion of tradition appears to
have been the mode of change here. However, while Thailand was never colonized,
unlike India and Sri Lanka, in the post-war period, it seems to have fallen
head over heels in love with western dress, western goods and western products.
In a very superficial way, Thailand, like other
parts of East and Southeast Asia, is very westernized. Bangkok is full of tall,
shining, glass-fronted buildings with escalators and indoor atriums. There are
glitzy shopping malls everywhere, and they are packed, not with tourists as
with Thais. These are young Thai people, complete with the latest Esprit or
Abercrombie clothes, blond streaks and cosmetics straight out of western
fashion magazines.
In fact, the performer at my second hotel
epitomizes this. Dressed in western evening clothes, her beautiful voice belts
out old 1950s and 1970s easy listening classics. She gets the tune mostly
right, jazzes it up after a fashion, and the accent is often a perfect
imitation, but suddenly, she sings a lyric that could not possibly be written
by a native English speaker, or she sings it in an accent unmistakably
Southeast Asian. What remains of a good performance, to my picky ears alone
undoubtedly, is a studied imitation. I want to ask her, is this the music of
your soul?
The question towards which I am tortuously
working my way is a simple one: How do societies cope with the bulldozer of
rapid change? Thailand’s answer seems to be a good one: go with the flow.
It seems to me that the Thais have decided not
to worry overly about western influence, showing a confidence in their culture
that India lacks. Even as we worry about Valentine’s Day cards and MTV eroding
the bases of our culture, Thais embrace the appurtenances of change. And they
are only appurtenances—whether the Thais are conscious of that or not.
Across the Chao Phraya, Bangkok is a city of dirty canals and seedy housing where time seems to have stopped still. On that bank stands the Wat Arun, itself a monument to the absorption of outside influences with its Khmer-style prang and yet irrevocably linked to Thai history and identity as the place on the river where King Taksin embanked at sunrise (hence the name) as he fled a sacked Ayutthaya in 1767.
The summer palace at Bang Pa-in carries this
nonchalance about absorption further. In the palace complex, there are a Thai
pavilion, a minaret for observation, a Swiss chalet, Italian marble statues and
Spanish-style folly, among others. The gardens are landscaped in the European
style. And plumb in the middle sits yet another offshoot of the Indian Bodhi
tree under which the Buddha was enlightened. Yet, in its genius and in its
spirit, the Bang Pa-in complex is unmistakeably Thai.
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Thus, the Thais have maintained their capacity to absorb confident of their essence, which Indians also had but have lost. This may be a consequence of colonization. My colleague at the conference observed that while they were as polite as the Thais, Cambodians seemed angrier and she attributed this to the experience of conquest and subordination. Perhaps it is the Indian experience of European colonization that has made us so paranoid about change. After all, like the Thais, we too absorbed and synthesized for centuries without paranoia. Something has changed, and maybe our response to that change is something to learn from the Thais.
August 19, 2004
After a year in rain-starved Madras, Bangkok has
been blissfully wet! The brown Chao Phraya rolled gently outside my window. The
rain comes down unfailingly—nazar na lagé (let me not cast the evil eye)—and in
the way I remember from childhood—noisily, vehemently.
As I sit in the beautiful Thara Thong restaurant
for dinner, it plays for me night after night, counter-point to the more
caressing notes of the Thai dulcimer, the khim. How can I describe how
beautiful Thara Thong is?
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Everything is a rich teak, yet the effect is
warm and glowing—the visual equivalent of the way their great food makes you
feel. Wood panelling can close in on you but here it does not. Delicate carving
relieves panels and beams of teak so that they resemble the inlaid marble of
the Taj Mahal or the intricate weaving of jacquard silk. And yet they retain
the quality of ‘wood-ness’—that is, the wood doesn’t start looking like
filigree or lace or paper-cut doilies. If Saharanpur woodwork could ever reach
a polished finish, it might approximate the carved panels at Thara Thong.
The woodwork is also relieved by large windows
through I can see it rain on the river.
I want to ask my friends and family in Chennai:
Do you even remember what heavy monsoon rain sounds and smells like? Yesterday
afternoon, the skies crumbled into rumbling thundershowers. I was at the
National Museum taking a walk through Thai history. When I came out, it had
just begun to rain. The rain lifted the heat off the ground so that it met me
at the door. Knowing I was now to be free of it, I stepped into the showers and
walked steadily towards the Gift Shop. Fifteen minutes later, I was ready to
look at old Thai art, but the rain was unrelenting and even heavier. I
hesitated but a moment before stepping in. It was a longish walk in that
weather to the Buddhaisawan chapel, but worthwhile, both because the chapel and
its contents are so beautiful and also because it felt marvelous to get that
wet.
Do you remember that when it rains really
heavily on clean streets (two things we don’t really have in Madras—rain and
clean streets), the union of rain and earth is marked by a rising fragrance
that is sweeter than roses, denser than musk and headier than camphor? It is
called rain-on-earth. It’s a little bit mud and a lot of fresh grass. It’s
leaves on trees too, and somehow there is an indescribable inter-sensory
blending set in motion when it rains heavily on clean earth.
Thus, what the eyes see, what the nose smells,
what the ears hear, what touches the skin, all come together to define the
experience. The deepened lushness and greenness of the grass and leaves set
against the deepening grey of the sky amplifies the pitter-patter of the
raindrops, the drumming on the rooftops and the peel of thunder. They convert
the wetness to velvet and the chill to glowing warmth.
On the 20th floor, where I finish this
segment stretched on my bed, the large windowpanes are wet. It is raining
once more in Bangkok. And in the glass, it would appear that my bed is the
magic carpet and I lie on it, writing, perfectly dry but suspended in the
rain as if by magic.
August 19, 2004
I must write about Thai massages. Okay, in case
you do not know this about me, I love massages. I love facials, manicures and
pedicures for the massages, and I have no Protestant sense of guilt about
enjoying the comfort and relaxation of having someone work the tension out of
my muscles. In general, I enjoy comfort and luxury, and stressful as life gets,
I really enjoy massages. So here I am in Thailand, and you bet I am going to
try Thai massage techniques.
I had three types of massage in my six days: the
foot reflexology massage, the classic Thai massage and the aromatherapy
massage.
To those whose minds are curious and hearts
ridden with guilt, I will say, have the foot massage. The masseur or masseuse
knows the acupressure points in the foot and combines a treatment of them with
more familiar massage techniques so that at the end, your legs feel like
featherweights. What makes them really special is the acupressure treatment. In
an ordinary foot or leg massage, the lower limbs become light and flexible but
the tension slips to the rest of the body. In this case, the rest of the body
also relaxes so that your featherweight feet are not carrying a large lump of
lead.
The classic Thai massage is an amazing
experience, although one I am not ready to repeat for a while. The pressure
applied to the body is great, it targets muscles you really had no way of
knowing you had, and the masseur or masseuse moves your limbs and spine around
for you vigorously in all directions releasing the blockages of tension within.
However, the first time you have the Thai massage, you are constantly also a
little tense because you have no idea what is about to come.
The massage therapist in most Bangkok spas does
not speak much English. This is a mixed blessing. It is a good thing because
conversation is no longer an obstacle to your full enjoyment of the massage. On
the other hand, you cannot say, “Hey that hurts, but on the next position, a
little more pressure.” Even this becomes really complicated to communicate, so
you submit to what is being done to you, and this submission to the unknown
tenses one set of muscles as the other is being relaxed.
The real shocker, for which I hope this account
prepares you, is when you are lying on your stomach and before you know it, the
therapist is walking on your back! Your mind is in shock but your body delights
in the weight, remembering all the times you have wished someone would just sit
on an aching part and relieve the pain.
The Thai massage is not for the delicate and the
faint-hearted. It is a rough and high-pressure treatment that is very, very
effective, but not before it puts you in a spin!
I had no intention of having an aromatherapy
massage because it sounded like something I could do in Madras. But the
receptionist at the spa kept saying that I should have this and not the others
because it was good. She kept stroking her hand and stroking my hand to show me
what she meant—she meant gentle. She said it as if she knew something about me,
there was some beacon that yelled out: this body needs aromatherapy not Asian
blend massage! Quite honestly, I was intrigued but we lacked a common
vocabulary in any language to pursue the whys and wherefores of her reading.
And I was just too tired, falling down as I stood with exhaustion, to argue. At
that point, she moved in for the kill, offering me a discount. This was
shocking considering she had spent three separate sessions trying to sell me
package deals I did not want. Fine, I caved.
The aromatherapy massage I got actually ended up with a little more pressure than usual by request and also emphasis on the legs since I had been eyeing the foot massage again. Orange oil was used, and while at the time I did not feel terribly impressed, I have to say I came out much less tired than when I went in. So if you want a ‘no surprises’ massage, this is the one to try.
August 20, 2004
Four days before I arrived in Bangkok, Queen
Sirikit celebrated her 6th cycle birthday. She turned 72 and there
were fireworks on the river all night.
The Thai, like the Chinese, follow a twelve-year
cycle of signs and mark the birthday that recurs in the year of the sign under
which you were born as a special event—a cycle birthday. I have become very
fascinated with this concept.
I turned forty this year. This means I have had
three cycle birthdays so far. Now, three is the bare minimum to establish a
pattern so as a social scientist, I am driven to examine years 12, 24 and 36 to
see if there is something I can expect at 48, 60 and 72.
My twelfth birthday came at the end of Std. VII.
I wore a red lehnga to school, which became one of my favourite clothes to wear
that year. My aunt had bought them for my sister and me. Twelve was an
interesting year. I started studying French; I got to act in St. Joan as an
executioner, and at the end of the year, in fact, on my birthday, the Congress
was voted out and the first non-Congress government voted in. I do not remember
Std. VIII as a great year. I could not now pinpoint why. It may have had
something to do with our classroom, which was very dark and seemed dank as
well. It may have had something to do with the alienation I constantly felt
from my peers—when I think back, those were years in which my sense of always being
alone began.
Fast-forward to twenty-four, and I am in the middle of the civil service
examination process. My father underwent by-pass surgery the day after my
birthday. I had been teaching that term and it was not an experience I cared to
repeat. The civil services results marked the apogee (or should I say nadir?)
of a period in which life seemed to be telling me: you are not such a special
person. And the message from the universe, in the form of advice from family
and friends was: settle. Settle for what is possible and settle for what is in
hand. Perhaps a positive reinterpretation should point to this being a year in
which everything around me pointed to compromising and satisficing, but I had
the inner wisdom and resilience and confidence to resist and hold out for what
was important to me.
Thirty-six was another tough birthday. I had
been in India for my sister’s wedding and when I got back, after a week of
being surrounded by family, almost everyone forgot my birthday. Uncertainty
shrouded every aspect of my life. But I had just begun doing reiki, and it
released from within me all my pent up anger and all my pent up resentment. And
it released my creativity. After many years, I began writing and I began
placing my writing online. The discipline that life had taught me was
channelled into this and other enterprises. I travelled where I could,
systematically identifying people I should meet and introducing myself. In
retrospect, thirty-six was not such a bad year. My first book was published, I
traveled, and I took responsibility for expanding my options.
The pattern in the years of my cycle birthdays
has been that I have separated myself more and more from peer pressure, from
assumptions about what one can and cannot do and from limitations set by
others.
I want to ask what does the future hold? But
surrounded as I am by temples, the question comes back to me: what is the
future? What is the past from which you are culling so many words and
observations? And my mind responds, “They are nothing.” That which is real is
here and now. That which is to be celebrated is here and now.
Not the prang in which the ashes of this or that personage are kept and the stone sculptures whose heads were lopped off in search of gems; not the Swarna who was or the Swarna who will be; but the crowds and traffic of Sukhumvit Road and the Swarna who is sitting in a taxi waiting to get through them. It is as simple as that. A cycle birthday is simply another excuse for a party.
August 20, 2004
There is a Bodhi tree in the Bang Pa-in complex, and in most of the temples we visit in Ayutthaya and Bangkok. The legend is always that it comes from the very tree under which the Buddha attained enlightenment. We do not need a DNA test to verify this; it is enough that people believe this to be true.
And genetics aside, it is true. The various Bodhi trees scattered around the world verily spring from the seed of Gautama Buddha’s enlightenment. One person, one idea, one teaching (or set of teachings), one tree, one set of seeds. That is what I am looking at in each of these places.
The tree at the palace complex arrests me. I think of its cousins, near and far, that I have visited around the world. It takes one seed.
Theravada, Mahayana, Tantric Buddhism, Tibetan Buddhism, and so on. It takes one good idea. One seed, one idea, many gardeners, many teachers. One sun, the same rain, many rivers, different soils. The same sacred topography and the same community of faith.
I cannot stop marveling at this. Everything you need to know is around you, if you would only look. Everything you need to know is inside you, if you would only stop and be still. One seed, one idea.
August 20, 2004
I am not sure which of the two was more
attractive to me—seeing the ruins of Thailand’s old capital or sailing back to
Bangkok on the Chao Phraya. The plan to take a trip of this sort however took
root the minute I first read about it, confirmed by the positive experiences of
friends.
So here we were, entering the Wat Mahathat, our
first stop of three in Ayutthaya. (And I should warn serious history-art-archaeology
afficionados that all these tours are really superficial; there are lots of
important things you do not see and it is simply a trade-off that is either
acceptable to you or not.) This is where some of the Buddha’s ashes were kept.
But as you walk in, you see that the Burmese really were unsparing in their
raids. The first thing you encounter is a seated Buddha, draped in saffron
and yellow by some devotees, in the dhyana mudra, surrounded by beheaded disciples
on either side. Flowers and incense are offered to this open-air installation,
and sitting in the midst of crumbling ruins, it is the picture of stillness
and serenity. To be so silent, to keep one’s still centre when things fall
apart—this is what we would all aspire to.
Just off on a side, is the strangest—even grotesque—sight
of a stone Buddha head, strangled by the proliferating roots of the Bodhi
tree. I saw a beautiful black and white photo-card of this captioned ‘the
passage of time’ or something of the sort. It is very striking, a little spooky
even, but domesticated by the proliferation of wishing ribbons and banners
and flowers. Nestled in the bark of the tree are little Ramakien dolls.
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I circumambulate the complex of crumbling prangs
and delight at finding a champa tree in the back. It is in full flower, and the
blossoms have fallen off, spreading like a lace stole on the ground. A sharp
contrast to the dilapidated complex in which it stands, it seems to illustrate
that life goes on in death as well.
Our next stop is a temple that is still in use,
the Wat Na Phra Meru. Its main hall holds a beautiful, large gilt-covered bronze Buddha.
The pillars and the doors are beautifully painted. In the back is a
small shrine with a much older 1300-year-old greenstone Buddha image from Sri Lanka. I light some incense there and sit for
a few minutes with my eyes closed. The monk sitting by the side of the image
is on his cell-phone however, and so I don’t linger. As I emerge, I am asked
if I am a Buddhist, where am I from and am I traveling alone.
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This last is a question I am constantly asked in
Thailand. Am I traveling alone? Which leads to, where are my children and oh,
am I not married then? At one restaurant, the head waited (a woman) actually
said, “Oh, but I can see you look nice when you are young!” There are not many
things a forty-year old who feels younger by the minute can say to that, so I
sort of shrugged to imply both that I had not found anyone and that it was not
her business. I do not know which one worked. I think she felt too sorry for me
to pursue the conversation.
Our last stop in Ayutthaya is the Wat Lokaya
Sutharam where a 140-foot white plaster reclining Buddha lies. We walk around
the Buddha taking pictures. Along his impressive length, across from him, are
vendors selling crocheted vests and baby clothes, coconut water and postcards.
Tired and disinterested in walking around the monument under the noonday sun,
we shop desultarily and get back on the bus to head to the pier.
As we sail back down the Chao Phraya to Bangkok,
houses line the banks of the river, with temples forming the links along the
way. The river is brown and muddy with the monsoon. A lot of flotsam bobs
up and down around us—some of it is driftwood, a lot of it garbage. But this
cannot mar what is a pleasant, leisurely boatride down a picturesque route.
The river winds around the conurbation, and although it is hot and sunny,
a warm breeze makes it possible for us to sit on the deck a while. Coffee
is served as we enter Bangkok and I get my first glimpse of the big Wats and
the palace along the river. The pier arrives and a pleasant day ends.
August 21, 2004
The boat is a covered motorized canoe bobbing
precariously off Sathorn Pier. There is no anchor. There is no thick rope tying
the boat to the pier, just a boatman holding on to the boat and pier and a tour
guide saying, “No problem, you hold this rod, step on this seat and get in.” In
between the brown Chao Phraya rolls, not so gently. I remember my old fear of
stairs with gaps in between and I remember that I cannot swim and I think what
a dirty place to drown. But I am consoled by the fact that my Birkenstocks will
not slip off my feet.
Somehow, we are seated, my tour guide and I, and
the boat turns and sets off south towards the Gulf of Thailand. We will not go
that far but turn shortly into one of the klongs (canals) that criss-cross Thon
Buri on the west bank of the river.
Thon Buri was the third capital of Thailand for
a short fifteen-year span. It is now the poor sister across the river from
Bangkok. This is a world unto itself.
Houses on stilts and boathouses stand alongside
the banks of the river. They are ramshackle and everything about them speaks to
a draining poverty—the clothes that hang on lines outside, the overgrown weeds
and plants around them and the piles of objects lying outside that look like
they belong in junkyards. The guide said on the way back from Ayutthaya, “Don’t
be deceived. These people often own the land around and sell the produce from
it and do quite well.” Somehow this seems less plausible on this klong just a
short way in from the river whose banks house five-star hotels. This is a
different Bangkok from the one in the shiny brochures.
It is absolutely quiet and there is no traffic
in the canal. We can hear the motor of our boat, and have to speak above it but
then those are almost the only sounds we can hear. It is actually a wonderful
stillness and silence. Or would be were the water cleaner.
We see garbage floating. The guide says, “When
we were young, it was possible for children to play in the water. Now they get
diseases if they do that.” I ask about sanitation. He nods his head sadly.
A dispirited note enters the morning’s
excursion. I have just come from an affluent, bustling, modern part of town to
this. I wanted to see how people really lived in Bangkok and I am willing to
accept this is a smaller percentage than we have in India, but that does not
make it any more acceptable. We wonder why it is so easy for governments to
legislate and reform living conditions for only one section of the population.
The guide, who is an India-trained sociologist and a US-trained economist,
says, “Because that is where they live and those are the people they meet.”
We motor on. The sight of treetops emerging
trunk-less from the water cheers me up. All we can see is the foliage of the
trees in a clump that has palm and mango among others. We pass by a few of
these.
We also pass some beautiful back-verandah
gardens with a wide variety of vivid flowers. I am unable to photograph them so
you will have to take my word for this. “A violet by a mossy stone, half-hidden
from the eye; Fair as a star when only one is shining in the sky.” What would
Wordsworth write, were he taking this klong tour with us?
At one bend that we approach a couple of boats
are parked, one laden with plastic goods and the other occupied by a
mid-morning napper. They are identified as good subjects for a photograph. But
I think, how would I feel if I were buying (or selling) a plastic mug, and
someone I did not know took a picture of me to show strangers? How discomfiting
that would be!
From this point on, the neighbourhood improves
gradually. The houses look newer and better appointed. Sometimes there is a
patch of yard in the back; sometimes quite a large back garden with a private
jetty. We start passing by many Buddhist temples, which were usually located on
the banks of rivers and canals because the waterways were the main mode of
transport and this was convenient both for worshippers and monks seeking alms.
We pass the famous snake and crocodile farms. Then
the canal banks get grimy and messy again and we are really close to the confluence
of the canal and the river, because these are warehouse-like structures. The
boat turns north into the river, and slowly approaches the jetty of the Wat
Arun, which I have wanted to see since I arrived in Bangkok five days ago.
August 21, 2004
The line between tourism and pilgrimage was
always blurred for most South Asians, and so it was in Bangkok for me as I
chose to focus my sightseeing on temples. I wanted to open my heart to the
experience of the temples not as art or as history but as repositories of faith
and of positive energy over the years.
I have chosen three temples I want to be sure to
visit: Wat Arun, Wat Pho and Wat Phra Keuw. From the little I have read and
seen, these are the three that have called to me. The guide insists on adding
the Grand Palace to the list and since we have to enter the Wat Phra Keuw
through the Grand Palace, I acquiesce.
Wat Arun was visible from my first hotel room
window. I could see its white prang in the daytime and at night, I could see
the prang and the shrine behind it, illuminated. So over my first three and a
half days in Bangkok, I became attached to it with no idea if it had any
special spiritual significance.
My guidebook tells me that the central prang is
steep and built in three stages to denote three stages of one’s spiritual
evolution. When we go there, we are not permitted to climb it, but I can tell
you that the steps on the sides are quite steep enough, thank you! Asked
whether I want to just see one side and go on, I say, no, let us do this
properly, let us circumambulate the central prang.
I am not very spiritually evolved, and I am certainly not physically ready for the steep ascent and descent involved, so I move slowly, trying to convert this into a climbing meditation.